Wednesday 9 January 2013
Tuesday 8 January 2013
Over thinker
I thought I'd just write this to get a bit off my chest;
I'm one of the many people that over think, sometimes I get scared, worried and occasional paranoia which really does bug me! I wish I could be more laid back with situations that get thrown at me.
Lately I've been over thinking a bit too much, to the point where I'm crying over things I'm trying to get out of my head, like thinking about things I could have done better, things I shouldn't have, and that's just not helping me go a day without thinking about things I probably shouldn't be wasting my thoughts on.
I never really thought that I could actually feel this low within myself as I do right now, I'm generally a happy and positive person, but hiding behind the smiles gets the best of everyone in the end.
After some of the things I've been through a few years back, I would never have thought little things would bug me to this point, I guess losing people hits you harder than you expect....
I'm one of the many people that over think, sometimes I get scared, worried and occasional paranoia which really does bug me! I wish I could be more laid back with situations that get thrown at me.
Lately I've been over thinking a bit too much, to the point where I'm crying over things I'm trying to get out of my head, like thinking about things I could have done better, things I shouldn't have, and that's just not helping me go a day without thinking about things I probably shouldn't be wasting my thoughts on.
I never really thought that I could actually feel this low within myself as I do right now, I'm generally a happy and positive person, but hiding behind the smiles gets the best of everyone in the end.
After some of the things I've been through a few years back, I would never have thought little things would bug me to this point, I guess losing people hits you harder than you expect....
Saturday 5 January 2013
my best friend!
Thought I'd dedicate this post to my awesome best friend Sarah...
When I first started college back in 2011, I was a week late to start in our course, so missing the first week I missed out on bonding and meeting everyone beforehand, I was the new shy girl and knew nobody, so I didn't know what to expect.
I started out pretty quiet and kept myself to myself, which, if you know me is pretty hard to believe!
I also wasn't very happy in my course when I first started, but my tutor mentioned me and one of the girls in class may have similar styles in music so we may get along. When we finally got the chance to speak, we instantly clicked in general, liked the same things and most importantly liked the same music!
Soon enough we became best buddies ever since, we're like sisters, we annoy each other and have little arguments now and again, but nothing life threatening.
I also wasn't very happy in my course when I first started, but my tutor mentioned me and one of the girls in class may have similar styles in music so we may get along. When we finally got the chance to speak, we instantly clicked in general, liked the same things and most importantly liked the same music!
Soon enough we became best buddies ever since, we're like sisters, we annoy each other and have little arguments now and again, but nothing life threatening.
I couldn't imagine life without my best friend now, and I don't think we ever intend in losing touch (we pinky promised soo :P)
We do get accused of being inseparable, but we probably are, so who cares!
We've only been friends for nearly two years but we always say it seems like we've known each other forever! In the short time we've known each other we've been through quite a lot and had moments that we'll never forget, I've had a few downs and she's always been there for me to defend me and pick up the pieces.
We do get accused of being inseparable, but we probably are, so who cares!
We've only been friends for nearly two years but we always say it seems like we've known each other forever! In the short time we've known each other we've been through quite a lot and had moments that we'll never forget, I've had a few downs and she's always been there for me to defend me and pick up the pieces.
So I thought I'd write this just to basically say, THANK YOU to my amazing best friend/sister for putting up with me and my funny ways! I have the best big sister anyone could ask for!
And that's the end of my major soppyness..
And that's the end of my major soppyness..
xo
Tuesday 1 January 2013
hello 2013!
2012 was a memorable year to say the least....
It had it's amazing moments that'll stay with me forever! I had an awesome holiday back to Thailand, started my second year studying music and met incredible people that I hope won't be leaving my life anytime soon.
But also some awful moments, such as the loss of my beautiful nana in November of whom I was very close to, that was an incredibly tough time that we are all still suffering from.
I've entered 2013 missing a lot of people that were and still are important people in my life.
But I have high hopes for the year ahead! Happy New Year!! :)
It had it's amazing moments that'll stay with me forever! I had an awesome holiday back to Thailand, started my second year studying music and met incredible people that I hope won't be leaving my life anytime soon.
But also some awful moments, such as the loss of my beautiful nana in November of whom I was very close to, that was an incredibly tough time that we are all still suffering from.
I've entered 2013 missing a lot of people that were and still are important people in my life.
But I have high hopes for the year ahead! Happy New Year!! :)
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